What Can I Change??
Here’s the second part of the challenge I set out for the Survivors…..to answer this question today…..
What am I doing now that I can change to bring me closer to my goals and make me healthier both emotionally and physically?
This is a hard one for me. I know where my problem lays but it’s part of who I am. I have always put more effort forth helping others then I do myself and I need to change that! I have no problem offering encouraging words and motivation to others when they need it but when it comes to myself it’s different :(. When someone says to me ” I ate pizza last night”….I say “Leave it in the past! Move on and forget about it!”. When I eat Pizza….I say to myself ” What is wrong with you!? You know better then that! You’re worthless! You’ll never reach your goals that way!” What is up with that kinda talk anyway?!
I need to start putting myself first and start nuturing my own thoughts. I can’t and WON’T stop helping others BUT…I CAN start treating myself with the same kind of respect…can’t I? Of course I can! I believe that if I can change my “self talk”…I’ll not only be more emotionally healthy but it will help drive me to reach a higher level of physical health. So….to sum up and answer the question….I can change how I treat myself and start putting myself first for a change in order to come closer to my goals.
Wow…that was a realization for me 
You will do it, it is all apart of this transformation. You have to start one step at a time. Challenge your self to do better each day then the day before! Know you are going to reach your goals, and make them a priority!!! You will do it. For me, the candy machine is right in front of my desk at work. It has my all time fav candy, Reese’s. How have I not eatin from it in six weeks??? I tell my self it I wait 15 minutes I can have it. Then another. Then Another. When I am actually hungry I tell my self to go get some veggies because I want to savor that reeses and right now I will inhale it. Then 15 more. Eventually i forget about it, and dont ever cheat on my meals. If I do decide to cheat, like last night I had spagetti, I keep it in moderation, and I throw something in I dont like, like mushrooms, and it keeps me eating the right amount. You will do it! Show us how!
My self-talk is something I need to work on as well. I am the same way; I will encourage and boost someone else, but tear myself down for the exact same thing! I know I deserve better, and so do you.
It is so easy to beat ourselves up over our mistakes. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
It helps when we realize that and can move on. Keep on working at it, you can do it!!!!
Boy, I think I might be too easy on myself sometimes! Maybe we can get together and learn about middle ground, and then we’ll both be on the right path!
LOL!! Thanks Allison
Sounds good to me! 
You know - I think that not being able to do for yourself makes you a mom and a woman. I am not sure what it is about our gender that tells us that it is ok for us to care more about others then we do ourselves.
I am so glad that you are finding your way back to you again. While motivating everyone with your knowledge is great - motivating us with your ability to love you and your family is just as important!